show me what i'm looking for

2011-09-26T04:12:00.000-07:00

hi,back on blogger.

decided to come back to blogging about everything after reading some pretty dope blogs over the week.

so keep a look out for this space if you will.

With love,

Amanda xx.

2010-11-28T01:18:00.000-08:00

i haven't been blogging,for ages!
i'm on tumblr now.

www.someoneelsessong.tumblr.com

see you on the other side(:
i may still post things here occasionally when i feel like doing so.this blog still has a place in my heart.all the ranting,reflections,pictures.reminds me of who i am,and who i still want to be.

2010-08-24T20:18:00.000-07:00

shots from Stylein's latest.liking what i see!

btw,love Andy Torres.amazing fashion blogger

2010-08-24T20:01:00.000-07:00

this quote really stuck on me,and got me thinking. So what has sustained me so far?

i like the boho vibe;it has this natural,flowery freshness of it. I'm gonna go boho!

I want to go to New York again!!

i need to get a tumblr.shizz. i keep looking at pretty pics and i think if i had an account i would have hit 1000s of posts,just reblogging the many pretty things i see.

o lvls in less than 2 months,just saying.

2010-08-19T20:19:00.000-07:00

the book was absolutely amazing.

really want to catch this!

things that made me smile

2010-08-19T20:08:00.000-07:00

I LOVEE DOMO

i really want to pick my guitar up now,and just ignore everything else

this is so sugar sweet!love it

i guess there's some truth in what they say,that you are your biggest cheerleader.

so when you're down,don't sit around for someone else to get you out of the funk.

you do it yourself.you make yourself feel better,the best way you know how.

2010-08-12T21:56:00.000-07:00

isn't Victoria Justice just gorgeous?

she looks a tad like the teen Britney!

2010-08-12T21:54:00.000-07:00

i like.

pic spam.

2010-08-10T20:29:00.000-07:00

2010-08-10T20:17:00.001-07:00

leave unsaid,unspoken

eyes wide shouldn't open

you and me,were always

between the lines

bright eyes

2010-08-10T20:13:00.001-07:00

haven't been putting anything up here since like,forever.so i'm updating after superfrigginglong.
everything has been more or less the same,and being 16 is quite the same +more in-a-funk-days that come around every now and then.
haven't indulged in much of my guilty pleasures recently,ie. shopping,walking aimlessly,eating good food and just lazing around during the weekend. i guess all that is really required of me is discipline,isn't it?
yup say it all the time,and want to mean it everytime,
ITS TIME TO TOTALLY KICK ASS.for real.so bye blog, bye life.
i need to start working hard for the o's(:

2010-07-12T18:58:00.000-07:00

i'm sixteen!

2010-06-27T01:42:00.000-07:00

today in the quiet of my room, i made a decision.
i'm not thinking about how faithful i'd be to it,
but i have decided, that it will be for This cause i will lay down my life.
for This God i'd give my all,
i'd give my everything.and more than i'd imagine.
i remember now,the reason why i love.
the reason why i even do what i do. the reason why i serve
the reason why i desire what i desire
the love that has sustained me,and the mercy that has been extended to me.
it brought tears to my eyes as i recalled time after time,
challenge and testing after testing that God brought me through.

'Whose eyes are these,watching over me, eyes of love that set me free'

something that did inspire me.

2010-06-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

i have always had a patience issue.with it,and having it.

i hate waiting for things to happen(note: more than weeks,months,that kind of long),for gadgets to work,for buses to come,you name it,i'd prolly hate waiting for that to. I realised not too long ago that patience is key to alot of things,that i do and i wish to do. and that realisation caused me to be tested in that area,alot.

i was reading Pst Phil Pringle's book,The Leadership Files and stumbled on this page on patience. It goes,

"Patience is coping with people's faults and failings.

Patience is controlling your attitude when you want to lose it

Patience is not raising your voice when you're angry.

Patience is a soft answer.

Patience is giving people more time than you thin you should.

Patience is bearing with people while they learn what you already know.

Patience will make you complete, the Bible says, lacking nothing.
Patience is waiting for people, and doing it with a great attitude.

Patience is not huffing,sighing or losing it.

Patience is ruling your spirit.

Be patient with others,with yourself and with God.

The timing of God is perfect "

bye freedom.for now.

2010-06-27T00:50:00.000-07:00

bye holidays,hello school.
yup, it will be back to the 7.30-1.50pm life,and IR almost everyday of this term. wow.
the holidays weren't exactly crazy fun,but i did do some stuff that i enjoyed.
i guess the trip to the chinese Sin-seh could be filed under 'eventful' with the doctor using a chopstick like plastic thing to poke me at the accu-points,and me screaming,like hell. nearly screaming the whole fragile clinic down.
just rushed through e-learning for a math,which was horrible. it was like a slap on the back to tell me to practice more math. a math to be exact.

such is a life of a student. note to self: accept it. stop complaining. start being more serious. yes.

style icons i dig.

2010-06-20T03:53:00.000-07:00

Tommy Hilfiger denim's new endorsers, Matt and Kim are really awesome style icons. the really rock n roll style they embody is what i'd like to wake up looking like.

I also really like Sienna Miller. she has always been in!

Alexa Chung is really really hot. i like her nautical,sailor style,coz navy blue is my current favourite clothing colour!

agyness deyn is great too.she's edgy,has a real club-kid,futuristic style. i like her sense of boldness and adventure.

i like nicole richie's new do! i think her style sense is getting better!

2010-06-20T03:29:00.000-07:00

i really like this shot!

anyway,its been a month since i blogged,gasp. and so much has happened since then.

let's take now for example.

i just came back from Fired Up Camp with the other helpers, and i have 1 more week of hols and its back to reality. hello IR everyday after school for six weeks and O levels,soon.

i don't really know if the work i've been putting in now can be counted as hard work, though i would like to think it is.

i'm really kinda.. moodless. i don't even know what to or how to, or what i am feeling. you know, those days?

anyway, fathers' day lunch and afternoon time with mum and dad was great. I love you daddy, not just on fathers' day.

i've alot of slacker-ish thoughts in my mind. PLZZ GO AWAY!!!!!!!

ok so there we have it, a really random,and random update. okthxbye.

2010-05-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

Words they'll try to shake you
Don't let them break you
Or stop your world from turning
When words keep you from feeling good
Use them as firewood and let them burn

2010-05-17T02:05:00.000-07:00

because i'm nothing without love.

2010-05-17T02:03:00.000-07:00

take this sinking boat,and point it home

we've still got time.

-Falling Slowly

so i've had a long day

2010-05-17T01:46:00.000-07:00

and am rather tired from it.

school's been,how school is supposed to be

and i really feel the urgency now. to actually do something about my grades so whatever i'm getting now would not make an appearance at the o's.

oh god.

glad for the weekend that just passed by,had a good time,relaxing and being with friends that are just-awesome.

just that the horrid gastric came on me on saturday night.i guess you can imagine.

thank you to gordon for the cab ride. really needed it.

something happened yesterday,and made me feel really CHEESED.

i know it isn't nice of me to feel that way about people,but i mean,

people are people and sometimes we piss each other off.

or in my case, they sometimes do piss me off.

Amanda needs more patience.

she was THIS close to Roaring straight at you.

i think you should be really thankful she didn't.

and Amanda is thankful she didn't,cos you won't see her the same way,ever, if she did.

God, i need your love.

your love to love those around me,

and to be understanding and patient to see beyond the their actions and love them still,as you love me.

just some random thoughts

2010-05-11T06:03:00.000-07:00

i kinda like my hair like this

2010-05-04T04:14:00.001-07:00

something like this,but with much smaller,and lighter curls.

how?

should it be straight,or curled?

The PICS.

2010-05-04T03:51:00.000-07:00

my thoughts on GaGa

2010-05-04T00:45:00.000-07:00

oh well, the Lady has made people think alot of different things
but for me, i think saying that her music and her antics,and her in general are nothing short of a phenomenon. she got almost everyone going from 'papapap-pokerface papapokerface' to 'raraumarama,gagaoolalaa' in a matter of months, and people talking about her outlandish outfits at music awards and how she looked like a caricature everytime,without fail.
and yes, i was one of those people.
awhile back, Mypaper( the free newspaper that we get everyday at my place) did a feature on Lady Gaga,about how more and more kids(note:under 12) were all gaga over GaGa, and in it it did imply that she was too..risque,or to be extremely blunt, sexually charged for children. at a small column of the article they featured some of her lyrics,and my eyes nearly popped.
though it shouldn't or isn't a suprise,how she can get quite ahem, sick, in her songs, it disturbed me that while i was singing to her music i wasn't even aware that the lyrics were so scary.
that really was like a boomz moment for me.
so it isn't like enjoying good music though the artist is messed up(ala, Amy Winehouse) frankly, i don't know what to make out of her music.
yes,she is talented as a artiste(she has great vocals) and a songwriter, but i guess that's enough Gaga for me.

what a day,yesterday

2010-05-04T00:36:00.000-07:00

yesterday was crazy fun with Sheryl at vivocity.
some things we did: shopped,shopped,shopped,i bought new jeans from Pull and Bear, some accessories from Diva(and mum's mother's day gift!) and a black bodycon dress from cotton on
and we talked alot
and a perk:we got our hair curled for free at a booth.we both looked like barbies after!but i liked it!its all in the pics where we flaunt our curls(haha,so look out for that!)
drank coffee bean( had my favourite, Pure Vanilla), ate Aoba Ramen which wasn't too bad, just that i wasn't that used to the salt based soup, shoyu base for me next time!, and not to mention, camwhored alot.not sure if it was in excess though! picspam later,after my cam gets charged.
so it was a great day,had lots of fun,laughing at ourselves,talking about things,bonding over shopping.and i spent alot.shootsies.
hell yeah,lets do it again!

on conservativeness

2010-05-02T20:47:00.000-07:00

conservative is something i'm not,
and what i hope i'll never be.
to me, all it does is stiffle,
and causes those under the conservative minded to be held back,
and not liberated.

to you,
look and see where your conservativeness has brought you,
and what has happened because of it.
its harming those around you, and you ask yourself 'why are they so different,and why are they becoming so extreme'
its because once they get alittle freedom after being held down,
that's what you'll see.

love speaks in silence

2010-05-02T02:23:00.000-07:00

so i've been slacking quite alittle (note:use of words is an understatement) this past few days,couple of hours. it feels good not really having to do much.
so here are some random highlights

have been hooked on dad's IPhone.have been on facebook and youtube ALOT. OMG,addiction.
have been eating great food. Ate at Watami at Central, ate muffins and pies for breakfast, went to bakerzin and fell in love with the Vanilla milk drink and Strawberry Shortcake.. ugh, somebody please tell me to exercise!
Watched Animal Farm with Beth on Thursday. great show, thought the ensemble cast was very good, especially pamilla oei and (the actress that played Molly).haha! thought Lim Yu Beng's Napoleon could have been way scarier and meaner;his intepretation failed to intimidate. And was rather distracted by Yeo Yan Yan's accent. (omg i sound so meann!) overall,i thought the play was believable,clever and accurate.
did i mention,we ate Han's and bonded too?b and i just blabbed and blabbed.
going out with Sheryl today!vivo,i'm going to buy at least a quarter of you. mwhahaha. mummy just blessed me with quite alot of moolah, i can't wait!
downloading Glee eps 14-16. can't wait to marathon tonight!
have been learning some stuff on the guitar. i am really sick of my amateur playing. its not like i want to be hard on myself,but i feel as if i haven't gone to another level,even after so long in my playing.
wrote some new songs too.
songwriting with b tmr most likely after lunch witih paige which is also another 'most likely'.

2010-04-29T19:25:00.001-07:00

i love this (:

you are life made beautiful

2010-04-29T19:18:00.000-07:00

i feel as if my heart is being tested
as if i am being asked if i am still going to love,and be willing to,
even when i see,even deeper, the imperfections in the people around me.

sometimes i do ask God why are people so complicated,inconsistent.
i don't hear a reply, but i feel as if the answer is 'because they just are'.

2010-04-29T19:08:00.000-07:00

the midyears are over. feels awesome,but my mind's in a maycomb state of mind

'with nothing to do,no where to go to, nothing to buy and no money to buy it with'

just feel really tired,and indifferent. but heck that, i can finally SLACKKKKK and not be studying for two different subs everyday,like last week!

yesterday was great,ate macs for lunch(finally in a longg time) and watched Animal Farm with Beth and ate at Hans.
it was a really good production

'All animals are equal, but some are more equal than others'

thought the emsemble cast was really strong, just thought Lim Yu Beng's Napoleon wasn't that intimidating,dictorial,fearsome (like the book one).

OH WELL.

JOY. i have 5 days to Slack.

Friday-going to do my hair. want to soft perm it at the ends,but mum doesn't seem keen D:

Saturday-family gathering for Aunty Kyrie

Monday's gonna be at vivo with Sheryl.

Tuesday- i still haven't decided!

random rambles, on kids.

2010-04-22T00:07:00.000-07:00

my mother's a tutor, so i get to see quite first hand how scary children nowadays can be
and boy, its scary.
from their schemingness,to the way the twist,turn,bend,whatever to get what they want, the way they throw tantrums at their parents,whom unfortunately give in to them without fail, its quite like 'you-name-it,they-most-likely-have-the-capacity-to-do-it' kinda thing. and i find it really sad and disturbing.
yet another reason why having children scares me,which is saddening to mum.
mum insists that its all about the upbringing,and dismisses all the character flaws,and outlandish behavior i point out as 'oh,their parents don't know how to teach la'
but really, i mean everyone has good intentions,and often have children in a burst of friendliness,only to realise they can't really cope and they are stuck with a human,that's just alittle short of being a monster.

omg. i'm so sorry, if i sound snobbish or offensive about this, and have angered all the kid-lovers. please forgive me. it's just how i've been feeling about it.
who knows,time changes people. maybe it'll change me.

what i've been up to

2010-04-22T00:04:00.000-07:00

haven't been in school for two days, sigh.
my right eye has been really swollen(so swollen today that i couldn't even open it)
went to the doc yesterday and today,and found out that ive got an eye infection. yeeks.
on antibiotics to bring down the swelling and tonnes of other stuff.

both Sha and paige think i'm very xiao jie. howwww?! its time i rough it up alittle ey?

2010-04-13T20:19:00.001-07:00

this made me think back about how i used to be,

simple,childlike and free.

2010-04-13T20:15:00.000-07:00

please,for goodness sake get this:
the world doesn't need another douche.
you really upset me yesterday.
it just really makes me wonder why i used to actually give a crap about you.

2010-04-13T20:11:00.000-07:00

we'll see the world,

from upside down.

2010-04-08T03:45:00.000-07:00

yesterday was one of my heaviest nights.
the night i thought alot and felt very convicted in the sense of ' we REALLY MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS'
was on the phone with Sha(thanks so much for talking with me,btw!) just talking about easter followups and everything, but as we continued to talk, she shared alot and i felt very impacted by her.
somethings she said is still ringing in my head
' oh yeah, of course i get scared. but i don't let my fear bind me, but i'm bound by my convictions instead. even though i'm afraid but i still plough through and chiong and just do what i need to do because i'm set in what i believe in. Amanda, you need to come to a place where your convictions are stronger than your fears.'

'yeah you guys keep telling me about all this, but at the end of the day, are you willing to fight for it? because i don't really see you guys fighting for it, and making it happen'

i'm really blessed to have a leader like that, that inspires.
thanks Sha, for investing in us and for doing all that you have been doing.

OKAY SO I REALISED I HAVEN't BLOGGED ABOUT THIS(:

2010-04-08T03:29:00.000-07:00

okay so i haven't blogged about RockandRoots since i went for it.

just so you know,i haven't been on the com in ages.somehow managed to psycho myself in to thinking that i don't have a com at home(cos of the crazy amt of work i have to do.note: 'have'. still have alot to go!!!ugh)

so!

where shall i start? the Fest was awesome.and beth was good company.thanks man!

we were the most enthu two, reaching the earliest,with the security guard asking us if we'd like to walk around and come back cos we were so early.

loaned aunty l's instax to snap afew shots here and there and they turned out quite good!

there weren't many people at the start,i think it only started filling up when jools holland and the band played(cuz after them was The Fray)

Beth and i stood right infront at the centre=awesome view. i guess the best view i've got at a concert.

i thought all the acts were good! alarice was nice and breezy ;gugun played some wicked guitar solos, jools holland and the band were fun, and i really liked Opshop. charismatic frontman with good sound to boot. nice.

and THE FRAY. i guess that was the main reason why i went for it anyway.

they were so so good,their sound on their albums are already spectacular but them live was even better. so it was a real treat.

they performed all my favourites: Absolute, Syndicate, Say when, Enough for now, Over my head, Never say Never, Look After You, How to save a Life...

only complaint? they weren't exactly crowd engaging(though the music was). they didn't really make any effort to work the crowd,only at the end. they looked really serious the whole time.

heard from beth who heard from an aquaintance(who played accoustic for alarice) that the guys were kinda pissed coz of the sound probs.

and it was kinda funny when they asked "Is anyone here from the mainland Asia?" and beth and i were like WHAT?! haha i think they thought we were China,or something.

beth says maybe they thought we didn't know english.

the crowd was pretty good. loads of them were drinking like fish, but other than that,not much pushing and squeezing and other unpleasant things. only this crazy lady who shoved her way through, pushing people away with her arms(darn she was strong) to get to the front when the frontman shook hands with everyone(AND BETH AND I GRABBED HIS HAND.OMG) she reaked of beer and her face was lobster red and in my opinion looked as if she was about to puke. so instead of pushing her away like everyone else, i sorta 'let her stand at my place' for abit coz i was scared she would puke on me. seriously. that.would.be.bad.

ended at 12plus (yes,in the morning) with an encore from The Fray.

one word: SUPERAWESOMEEEE(:

the fel-amanda-single hearts vday date

2010-03-27T23:00:00.000-07:00

date with felz on the vday week

so longggg ago but these pics make it feel like yesterday.

more pix on f.b

picspam.

2010-03-27T21:57:00.000-07:00

pictures from SOSOSOSO long ago

from christmas,zone thanksgiving lunch,cg chinese new year reunion dinner,cogls dinner..

2010-03-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

i want to love you,with every inch of me.

2010-03-27T21:37:00.000-07:00

i don't know why i keep stepping on your toes
and i don't know why it seems so hard not to get into arguments with you.
i don't know why whatever i say,it seems to come out wrong.
and you know what, i'm just tired of all of it.
what's become of us? tell me, mum and dad

have i told you lately that i love you

2010-03-27T21:31:00.000-07:00

i really thank God for the friends i have in my life,
not too long ago i was really upset with myself for this thing i do, just keeping to myself,and i felt that by doing that,even though it was not intentional and i don't know why i do, i was discounting myself of being close to alot of people that i wished i could be closer too.

but i guess friends that have your back will always do, and i am very blessed to have friends like this. friday was some serious shit, but thanks Isa for the sms-counselling when i was so angry and upset. Seah hui for the longggg talk and for trying to comfort me as i cried. Felicia!my bestff i don't know what i can do without,even though i haven't seen you in aeons but i'm really amazed that we are still close though i was scared we would drift alot.was really comforting to hear your voice and to laugh with you about absolutely mindless things. i love you big time,girl.

thank you guys for all of it.love you

something i'd like to say to you

2010-03-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

"you don't know me

you don't wanna know what's real

but i'm not sorry

for who i am,

or what i feel

cos you don't know me."

2010-03-20T23:56:00.001-07:00

"when they say,'why,why' , tell them that it's human nature"

nowadays i don't really expect alot from many people,because i've come to realise that its in our nature to do the unthinkable(in a bad way,sometimes) and to make mistakes and dissapoint.
when people ask me or when i hear them ask "why" or"how could he/she do that? i thought he/she was supposed to be...." i've just come to understand that though people may have certain affliations for example, their jobs/duty/supposed moral standards, at the end of the day,it all comes down to the person itself. when all these things have been striped away,we find that all we have left is our human nature.

it's just so crazy

2010-03-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

it was monday like a day ago
and now its the end of the marchie break. and back to school tomorrow!!
trying to finish all my holiday homework.
still have alot to go: A and E math MYE, chinese...
wish the break could have been stretched longer.
oh well!

yesterday was my first time giving b.s and i was rather mixed about it. had the nervous/eggcited thing going but i guess it was decent,considering that it was my first attempt. very thankful for Sha's encouragement.

i'm just really tired right now.
i want to shut my books,shut my eyes and dream of burgers,shakes and fries.

2010-03-13T20:27:00.001-08:00

I'M GOING TO WATCH THE FRAY ON the 27th.
OMG OMG OMG OMG(:
THANKYOUU DADDY.

2010-03-12T05:56:00.000-08:00

nobody said it as easy,
nobody said it would be this hard.

finally coming to the end of a rather crazy term.
one filled with quite alot of teacher drama moments, mugging for the tests, and rather crazy emotions that i'm still learning to deal with.

the march break is round the corner,and i'm not really cheering.
lots of assignments! but i guess the rest will be sufficient to charge me up for term two.
man, i wonder why i keep talking about studies these few days.
got back my progress report, seriously need to pull up my socks. L1R5 isn't dope.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. THE FRAY is coming to singapore, for Rock and Roots fest and if things are looking up(like they are now) i'm going!

2010-03-12T05:53:00.000-08:00

was thinking of how an accoustic of Human would sound like.

this sounds exactly like how it did in my dream. love this.

2010-03-06T08:43:00.000-08:00

really want a polaroid! but i heard that they stopped making films, cos apparently Polaroid's going bust and it isn't really confirmed that they're reviving it, though i don't see why not, since Lady Gaga is on the bandwagon as creative director,so that would pretty much resurrect the brand.
don't know if i should get one though hope i don't have to settle for a Fujifilm Instax coz if i get a Polaroid i'd hope to use it forever.cos its quite a waste to have a cam and not have film to take it with and not get to use it coz of the lack of film. OH WELL.

wake up early to black and white reruns.

2010-03-06T08:22:00.000-08:00

there's just something in most of us,
that kind of inclination to look for something,or someone,who can cause all our fears,insecurities and missingness to go away.someone who can just make it all okay,or at least make it seem to be.
i can't say i'm not one of them, but there's this crazy thing i realised about infactuations.
the current muse seems to be nearly perfect.
so how would you know if its love, or just a fancy? when people say 'oh,he's just so perfect' and they can't seem to see beyond the perfection of the person, yea,then it isn't love.

sometimes when i get such thoughts,i try and stop myself.
the logical part of me tells me that looking for someone to make everything seem ok and to stabalise my life is just a way of running away.i don't want to look back,feeling that i was an escape artist. just doing things i did so i could ease the pain and lessen my fears.

can anyone honestly say that they aren't afraid of getting hurt? i can't.
was thinking of why certain things are so hard to let go;
certain people, experiences,feelings linked with them and stuff like that,
and i think what my teacher said a long time back suddenly starts to make sense to me.
with emotional investment comes dissapointment.
i'm not saying i won't continue to pour my heart and all that i have into what i do,and the people i love but, i think i can take that for an answer,for now.

paris nights and new york mornings

2010-03-06T07:59:00.000-08:00

not going for paramore tmr. SADDDDDDDDD :(
i swear i'm going to listen to paramore the whole day tomorrow.
ive got so many random thoughts of late. so i guess i'll just spill. cos they aren't really sensitive stuff.

on Andrew Garcia: its sad he seems to be under-performing. but i really think he's a great musician. i mean, who could do Straight up like he did?to all the haters,you must admit that that he was so freaking amazing on that.so i'm still a fan, hoping he'd get it together somehow

on American Idol: its going down.

on current cravings: I WANT PEACH RED TEA!!

on current fave tracks: i don't know why but i really like Let's just Fall in love by Jason Castro. really didn't like him on Idol. but i really like the song.
never have been a fan of country music or country-indie-pop ish stuff, but i really like Lady Antebellum's Need you now.

' its a quater after one, i'm alittle drunk, and i need you now'.

on Arise and build.

2010-03-06T07:51:00.000-08:00

FINALLY BLOGGING ON THIS THING.
ARGH, long week,rough week.
glad i made it to the weekends(:
Arise and Build pledging today,and the video really touched me,
reminding me that it was not too long ago that we were hunting for land for the new building
and now its already come to past(: God's good.
WE'VE GOT IT. SUNTEC CONVENTION CENTRE.FROM NEXT MARCH :D
not to mention, the financier in me is acting up,reminding me to cut down ALOT on my spending.haha.
really sure of the pledge i made.
I want to see God's house being built on my sacrifice,and on the sacrifices of all of the rest of the church.
and i'm egg-citedd!

God, i want to love you more than i love myself.
and treasure you more than i treasure my own life.
i love because you first loved me.

a deer caught in headlights

2010-02-26T06:15:00.000-08:00

how can doing something to save your ass be so embarassing or cause you to lose so much pride,that you'd rather just scrape through and not do it,which is what is obviously better for you?
i've sort of got past that,what other people think,what other people expect.
i just figured that i'd do it my way,cos that's the way i know best.

2010-02-26T06:07:00.000-08:00

today was one of the not so nice days ever.
my a math teacher conviscated my IPOD for two weeks.
i'm sad,and just freaking annoyed.
i really don't know how i'm gonna get by without my loyal music player,for 2 weeks!!
and she says that mum and dad will be notified. shikes.
went for bio tuition today.
i told my teacher that i believe in quality upbringing,and not quantity,when it comes to having kids.when i told mum long ago i only wanted one, she freaked.
finally got a toga top that i dig,pretty much.
watched idol, must say the top 24 round 1 this time kinda sucked.
and ASHLEY RODRIGUEZ IS OUT! thought she was really pretty,just the wrong song, sad.
Andrew Garcia didn't exactly save the show, nor Ellen, so yea,you can imagine,the rest.
doing research for monday's radio talk show project, not exactly psyched but praying that i'd have a good attitude to last me the night,even as i'm scrambling to cram some info into my brain.
i know i'm writing random sentences that don't really link but i guess its just hard to link all the thoughts and happenings of mine,as of now.
oh well.ok.thanks.bye.

2010-02-26T05:56:00.000-08:00

GLEE EP 14-22, PLEASE COME SOON.

REALLY REALLY WANT TO WATCH IT.

2010-02-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

the amazing hols are ending.today.
back to school tomorrow!
had quite a blast actually.
watched GLEE alot. i'm at epi 11. haha (: love the show.
ate so much nice goodies,tarts,chips,chocs among many others.
met fel today! miss her so much!
watched vday which was really nice! haha, i cried :p
ate ajisen ramen after ,which was nice! and pix!\
will upload to f.b eventually. not today tho,tired :X
played WII at megan's. cooking mama,WII Sports, raving rabbits... the games were so fun!
collected quite alot of moolah. awesomest feeling ever. knowing that my bank account's fuller.
heh, back to reality tmr. to school.
tomorrow i end at 5.30pm. how nice.

one of my favourite love songs.

2010-02-13T06:59:00.000-08:00

I don’t think there’s a word I've ever heard
That captures the innocence of you
And I wouldn’t want one to
And no, I wouldn’t want one to
It’d be like smothering a star
Or covering a work of art
Driving so fast that the view falls apart
Like I do
Without you.

Chorus.
But im on my way home
And I'm worn to the bone
And when my heart hits an all time low.
There’s something shining through
I find the light in you
I find the light in you.

I don’t think there’s a sun that’s ever shone
Brighter than the radiance of you
And I wouldn’t want one to
No, I wouldn’t want one to
It would be a fire forever tamed
A burn without the pain
A heat that never warms the veins
Like you do.
Like you do.

But im on my way home
And I'm worn to the bone
And when my heart hits an all time low.
There’s something shining through
I find the light in you

Take my hand and we can beat
This glimmer of a dream
Out from the corner
Oooooo
Place your fingers into mine
And we can find a world
If we believe it we can breathe it
Breathe it into life. yeah

And im on my way home
I'm worn to the bone
And my heart hits an all time low
There’s something shining through

But im on my way home
And im worn to the bone
And when my hearts hits an all time low
There’s something shining through
I find the light in you.

someone,somewhere.

2010-02-13T06:42:00.000-08:00

"i know this sounds so bad but, alot of people told me that love is like a game, you can't place everything on the line,coz if you lose it all,then well, its just too bad.you can't really put your whole heart into it,you know?"
"you just can't make the other person your everything."
i don't know if i can do that, really.

so it's valentine's day tomorrow,
and i (like you probably know,or guessed) am valentine-less.
some of my friends are attached and they are gushing over their romantic date plans,what to buy,what to do, and i'm just you know,watching.
obviously,everybody(ok i'm generalising here,so if you don't fall in, i'm sorry) wishes to have someone to love.someone to think about. someone to shower affections on. someone whose just more than what other people are. eventually
and i'm not an exception.
i just frankly,am, rather terrified. of being more broken. and more lost than i already am.
i'm just scared of it. of the hurt,and everything.
people who think love is perfect are, idealistic.
people who believe in perfect lovers are really really,dumb. i'm sorry.
i've watched a number of people,acquaintances,friends think that the other person is THE ONE only to be heartbroken,hurt and just torn afew months later.
and go from 'omygod i'm so in love' to 'you're the worst thing that's ever happened to me'
like.wow. i just think i'm not ready for that kind of drama.
i mean, when its on the surface and you're not deep in it, all's good.
but when you get in too deep, it may be hard to just get back up.
i'm so sorry if this post's sort of like a wet blanket,
i mean vday's supposed to be ALL GOOD, 'LOVE IS IN THE AIR' , uplifting, wishful, awesome,bliss.
i just don't know. really.

2010-02-13T06:33:00.000-08:00

sit here and watch the stars with me
whisper to me fragile things,
you know i'll keep safely.
i must tell you, this feeling's larger than life.
to see you smile,
it makes me feel simple,
like how i used to be.
i know it sounds cliche, but you take my breath away.
i know its not going anywhere,
but what can i do,
when you've left me knee deep in love, with you.

2010-02-12T07:33:00.000-08:00

FINALLY BLOGGING ON THIS THING.
ZOMG.haha, i think i've been like losing interest in this.
i keep saying that.but i still keep blogging.
oh well.
school for 1 and 1/2 hours .
cny celebrations were horrible.seriously. i laughed so hard i nearly teared.and actually screamed in fright.
thanks to all for the sweet vday stuff.the sweets,the cards,the chocos,the baked cookies, the flower(ahem,isa-belle!)
love you guys (:
then off to karen's house.
miss talking to her man,major girl-talk session,and facebook stuff! ahahaha!
went home,watched half of glee ep 5 and then i ran to meet seah hui to go to church
cny service was great(:
reunion dinner after with cg guys and it was awesum! i really didn't know such a good eatery was near my school! had fun,thanks so much(:
start of cny tmr,and i kinda feel out of place, coz i'm a chinese,yet not a chinese.
my parents aren't really the traditional kind,those that actually remember traditions and carry them out, they are, in my opinion,relatively new age-ish.
we don't do much visiting,except for reunion dinners and gatherings with close family.
no masive spring cleaning.
no frantic cny shopping to get cny necessities.
cny clothing shopping is basically shopping for shopping.
you know,that its not really cny thats the reason for it.
haha.
so yay me, having 4 days of un-chinese-new year

empire state of mind

2010-02-04T02:33:00.001-08:00

alicia keys jay z -empire state of mind, broken down

the sparks on your tongue

2010-02-04T02:31:00.001-08:00

what a week.
freaking draining,but i'm glad i've got it done(:
ate oreo icecream at icecreamkafe with isa today
oh well, idon't really know..

you are POSITIVELY thinking what i am.just that i'm not gonna say it.

2010-02-03T23:57:00.001-08:00

Beyonce performing at the grammy's. absolutely brilliant.

the LADY and Elton john. liked what she did at the front part with Poker Face.

2010-01-24T00:59:00.000-08:00

And you know the rain won't last forever
And you know the storm won't always flow
But if the sun don't shine forever
You gotta let it go

well,yesterday was a heck of a day for me.

experienced the sinking feeling of disappointment,yet again.

the irony was, the day before yesterday(friday) i was telling isa that if i am seriously thinking of doing what i want to do, disappointment and rejection are two things that happen almost all the time and that i don't think i can handle much of that.

and boom. disappointment. the next day. is it a joke or what?

i don't want to be sore or bitter about it cos all it will do is make me feel worse,and not better.

its just sad to see people get disappointed time and time again,and have no expectancy and hope. but i think its really all in the difference in perspective.i just don't want to think of it so much and tell myself that 'oh ,it really shouldn't happen to me.its not fair.'and stuff like that,even though i sorta thought like that for awhile. but you know what,even though i'm saying this by faith, i'm going to keep going.

does it hurt?yes. do i doubt what i've been doing?maybe. i can't say no.
cried to gloria and just spilled all of it out.and i think that's good enough,don't really want to tell anyone else about it coz i feel it won't help. so i would appreciate if you don't ask about it.

on a slightly lighter note,

someone i really respect sent me an sms that really encouraged me,and i replied,

'no I won't give up, it's way too early'.

yep,its way too early.

2010-01-24T00:29:00.000-08:00

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though I try to hide I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe you got me
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
How much do i need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,
Oh my heart is filled with you. that smile meant something to me,was brief,but its something i won't forget anytime soon.i wish you would know how i squeel when you smile and say hi,when i see you,or even when i think of you.damn,you got me.

2010-01-22T00:31:00.000-08:00

Saturday before the sun is up
I'm out the door and on my way I
Catch the two and then the thirty five
And by six fifteen I'm on the train

Thrity miles till the final stop
And still I have to walk a few more
By the time I finally reach your garden's gate
I have nineteen steps till I'm at your door

And oh I'm afraid
To finally be with you
And when I see your face I know that

There ain't nothing strong enough to keep me away from you
There can be a wall of fire ten feet or higher
I would just walk on for you
Where there once was only room for one
Wherever there will be two

That's why I drive alone all this way for you
To you
For you

2010-01-22T00:06:00.000-08:00

this is for one of my favourite friends everr, PAIGE LIM(:

happy 16th girl!

you are one of the craziest,most outrageous, fun and spontaneous things that has ever happened to me.

thankyou for the many heart to heart chats,bus rides,camwhoring sessions,movie dates,counselling sessions,boytalk,and shopping dates.

i've known you for 5 years and i still love you, Awesome (:

2010-01-21T23:58:00.000-08:00

in these,
deep city lights.
A girl could get lost tonight
i'm finding every reason to be gone,
there's nothing to hold on to
could i hold you?

2010-01-21T23:40:00.000-08:00

if confidence,self belief and whatever 'i can do it' stuff i have in me could be measured by a battery, i think mine's flat, many times over.
i know its only week three but everything seems so overwhelming, i don;t have time for myself, can't watch tv,need to study, need to just collapse and sleep cos i'm so tired, still need to do stuff that i don't really want to do because i am responsible for it and yadayadayada.
its just hard.to sum it up.
i just need to find myself,
current;y i just feel lost in all of this craziness
i always ask myself 'why are you so weak?why can't you tolerate and cope with more like everyone else?' and you know, stuff along this line.
i'm just tired of people telling me what to do,how to do,and all the reasoning of where why how and when.
i just don't want to reason now,period.
i don't know if i sound like an angsty,ranting teen,hope not.
but i'm not just frustrated,i'm just really tired.
and uninspired.
and i just need a break.
a break from all the fricking things that are happening.
its like one thing after another.
maybe to others it isn't a big deal but if you don't know already, stress management isn't my thing
i know people say its ok to be overwhelmed and all,but really, i don't want to be.
who am i to kid,its only the start of the year.
i don't really want any 'are you ok's after this post,just felt that i needed to let it out.
well, i know that Rain Don't Last Forever(: Love that song by Hope.
God,give me strength and sorry if i was a beech this few days.

2010-01-16T22:07:00.000-08:00

haven't been updating,as usual .
have been SO BZ!
buziness level as of this few weeks: CRAZY.
tests come almost everyday.
from tues to thur this week, i'm having tests everyday(for those 3 consecutive days)
from monday to friday i'm PACKED with something everysingleday.
roar!but well, its sec four life right?
wellwell.

andddd....
we are gonna get our own chc building! yay(: when it was announced ystd during svc i was estatic!

to have a building in the marketplace,for the marketplace, to penetrate the marketplace

empire state of mind

2010-01-07T03:12:00.000-08:00

week one of school is coming to an end,and oh man,school.
tests already coming up next week,the following week and the following week.
a and e math CAs back to back this coming thursday.
OMG.STUDDDYYY! :p

YOG songwriting comp semi finalists have not been announced,yet. wonder when they will release them...hoping.
checked out the YOG webbie and Ken Lim and Taufik are among the judges, GASP.
American Idol's starting next wed!can't wait.
i know i haven't really been updating coz well,when you're dumped with lots of things to do, you sort of temporarily forget your laptop's existance.

O level chinese results are coming out next monday,and the sec fours of 09 will be receiving their O Level results. all the best! nervous for the chinese results!!!

i still feel unused to it,being in sec 4,feels, unfamiliar and abit intimidating.
it feels wierd to hear terms like 'prelims' ,'intensive revision', 'block periods' and other o level related conotations being used, but what to do, its 2010! and i've just got to do it (:

2010-01-03T02:53:00.000-08:00

hellooo, finally back to write something on the blog.
well tmr will be the start of the new( and final) school year in secondary school!
it's going to be my o level year and i'm really going to need to pull up my socks for my studies!
i was telling some of my friends that i still am not used to it, saying January(and remembering that it is) coz it still kinda feels like december!

felt inspired by a text message that i got on new year's day
'the old has passed, and the new has come'
and i'm just believing,and hoping for greater things(:
i know it will be an unpredictable year,and it'll be quite a ride.don't know what it'll be like(thus, unpredictable) but,2010,i hope you'll be my best year yet.

last few days of 09!

2009-12-27T20:36:00.000-08:00

yea, its the last few days of 09 man,
and ive still got work to do.
already thinking of next year, how i'm going to cope and survive the O's
oh man oh man oh man.....
watched SG idol yesterday, and sezairi won.
i knew it.waaayyy before the show started, i mean, how can he lose?
the expression on the judges' faces after the announcement was priceless man
but the thing that got my goosebumps appearing was Charice's performance.
she was so bomb. totally puts the whole show to shame,
aww man, sorry for the slamming, SG idol.

going to Royal's to eat soon(: can't wait.

2009-12-27T20:33:00.000-08:00

yay(:

2009-12-23T20:20:00.001-08:00

Merry Christmas guys(:

2009-12-20T21:17:00.000-08:00

(starworld American Idol Season 8 Commercial)

Simon Cowell: Did you miss me?
Me: YES!!!!!!!!!

haha,
american idol is starting TODAY! on starworld 6-8pm.
can't wait to watch,omygeez(: !

yesterday's thanksgiving was refreshing.
and lots of fun.
took quite alot of picturesss, will post it on f.b
connecting my cam to the com now(:
i left the meeting feeling really inspired, and this thought came to my mind.
that God doesn't need perfect people to serve
and he doesn't always use the most charming, charismatic and talented.
all he needs is a willing heart.

we sang an old song, Change my Heart, Oh God.
and God asked me,' Are you willing?'

oh man, what an amazing time it was, in the presence of God(:

CHRISTMAS IS COMING, IN 4 days!! AHHAHA! YAY(:
need to go christmas shoppingggg!
haha(: but best of all, its Jesus' bday(:
and i'm still NOT DONE WITH my hol hw. OMG OMG OMG. AH.

2009-12-19T19:54:00.000-08:00

need to start writing the song for the PA songwriting competition. I NEED TO STOP PROCRESTINATING, GEEZ.
haha. yea and hopefully get the recording done by end of this year so i won't have to chiong it next year.

for the YOG comp, thanks so much to all who have voted and who have been voting for me, we are at 146 votes currently. KEEP voting k, thanks a bomb!

the webbie is: www.singsingapore2010.nyc.sg and the song is Dreams in our Hands (:

thanks lots!

2009-12-19T19:49:00.000-08:00

what a week!

this week was crazy.
went on a study date with Fel(:
did the LOUD party gig with The Partimers and it was wild (at the end)
had an awesome cg meeting yesterday. ministry time was amazing(: and God spoke
can't wait for thanksgiving with Sun tonight!

i have super lots of pics in my cam! will upload on f.b soon, i hope!

cya(:

this is not my heart

2009-12-14T03:35:00.000-08:00

hello(:
as you guys know, i took part in the YOG songwriting competition and my song is on their webbie!

go to: www.singsingapore2010.nyc.sg to vote. GO VOTE(: haha, thanks lots!

2009-12-09T22:11:00.000-08:00

need to do my homework.
now.
oh man,
but i don't feel like doing!!!
there's so much to do.

and i found myself, thinking of you.

2009-12-09T20:29:00.000-08:00

ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I BLOGGED
OMG
MY BLOG IS SO DEAD

haha,
my friends keep telling me to UPDATE. so here i am(:

well, alot has happened since my last post.
i'm taking part in a Youth Olympic Games Songwriting competition and
went jamming on saturday
and did the recording of my demo on tuesday and wednesday(yesterday)

was ubber cool. the guys were fab; the music was good. but i was having a bad throat and cold on the two days of the recording so...i hope i didn't sound too bad!
but really, huge thank yous to: leonard(keys) gerald(base), tim(electric guit), shaun(drums) and Ms Ng(music director) I OWE YOU GUYS BIG BIG TIME.
thanks so much for your patience with me, especially coz its my first time, for all the craziness and good music.

and mum and dad for paying for my recording! seriously if i paid myself it would have scalded my pocket.

its really exciting for me though its pretty stressful in the recording studio coz i was scared i wouldn't be able to hit the notes with a bad throat and the mixing engineer and leonard and gerald watching me from outside. but it was exhilerating, getting to do what i always dreamed of. and i really do feel very blessed though the recording is far from perfect, its a good start.
now i am pretty sure, this is what i want to do(:

its my first time doing all these crazy things; recording, mixing, jamming...
and i'm loving it!
gig coming up on the 18th and most likely gonna do it
and jamming on sunday afternoon
need to take care of myself, and curb the cough and flu! in short QUICKLY GET WELL!

haha,bye

2009-11-22T02:48:00.001-08:00

beautiful!

this is one of my favourite covers from jennifer(:

prefer this to the One Republic version! go check it out

2009-11-22T02:36:00.001-08:00

I KNOW THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN UP HERE SOME TIME AGO.
LONG LONG AGO.
but,well,it is,finally up,on f.b!

the pics from SG Idol with paige.
was fun la, and kudos to paige for the great shots in the studio(:

OH WAIT,blogger is playing tricks on me, again.
so go to facebook to check them out(: cya!

2009-11-22T02:06:00.000-08:00

went for a wedding yesterday with mum and dad

was mum's student's wedding!

was fun! the church wedding was sweet(kept telling mum that the kiss should have been longer) and the music was fab,like they had a great soundtrack for the different moments

had quite a good time,dressing up and all but had terrible terrible cramps that left me slumped over,sitting down half the time.

sucked big time cos i looked like i was in pain(YES I WAS) and didn't have much of an appetite to eat the GREAT food at the dinner

had numerous funny convos with mum and dad,

them telling me what i should do, for my own wedding.

"so what do you think of the wedding?"

"it was good,but well um, the kiss was quite short. they should have totally have a longer one,zomg.its once in a lifetime!"

" ey, next time you shouldn't have too long a kiss,must respect the elders in the congregation"

"oh yea? they can go eat their heart out."

2009-11-19T21:03:00.000-08:00

what i think of guys who don't keep their word,get cold feet last minute and make Exceptionally lame excuses? gross.

yep,you've stepped on my toes quite afew times already,can't do anything but really,i think your a douchebag for NOT KEEPING YOUR WORD

2009-11-19T19:56:00.000-08:00

"everybody wants happiness, nobody wants pain. But you can't have rainbow without a little rain."

read this quote on a blog today and it really touched me.
was talking to some people recently and i realise that alot of people just want all the good stuff without sacrifice,without giving of themselves.

2009-11-19T19:43:00.000-08:00

haven't been blogging in sometime,
superfreakingtired right now.

haven't really prepared for c.g,
practiced for p&w (the song all things new is keeeeelin me)
haven't done songsheet
haven't uploaded pix from wed
haven't called karen

so many things to do!!!
haha,
so yea,
my week was pretty ok,had some highlights here and there

ate nice dinner at a japanese place on sunday at kallang leisure. interesting concept,nice ambience and the food was not bad(: went to nic's house too
went crazy shopping with mum yea, it was nuts.
but bought a miu miu dress,burberry dress,juicy couture track suit(AH!),bally shoes among many others. (real stuff,not immitation,lol!)
changed my guitar strings!
watched Blue Mansion with paige(yes,yet another sneak-in to an NC-16 film) which is really great! go catch it! laughed so hard i cried at one part,must say the local actors are really really good.
went to watch SG Idol with paige too, haha it was so amusing.
will post the pictures soon,with some of the funnys we encountered.
think Ken Lim chewing his nails,and dick doing his touch ups inbetween breaks.like lmao(:
interact leadership camp,all i can remember is we ate SWENSONS. LOVE the strawberry sundae and ribeye steak sauce(:
going for a wedding dinner tmr!yay yay, can wear the new dresses(:

2009-11-15T18:32:00.000-08:00

when i made that prayer,
for this to happen,
i didn't think of the fufilment of it.
i'm still learning to deal with the fact that i can't please everyone,
that my finances are straining(cab!)
that sometimes my parents would be unhappy with me and fail to understand why i do what i do
that sacrifices are essential.
thats why i need You(:
its not about me anymore, need to lean on God more(:

2009-11-13T06:42:00.000-08:00

i feel terrible now.
omg,amanda,how could you.
how could you do that
how could you be so selfish
now i feel guilty
i feel,so so bad
about yesterday.
its not convenient to blog about it,
but i did something very wrong,
at the expense of my friend

i know you are fricking pissed at me,
i don't even know what to say.
i feel embarassed even,thinking about it,
thinking about what you said,because it's true.
i am really sorry,
but i know sorry won't help at all, now
i don't know what will,
sorry for f*cking up your day.
i don't think i can ever make it up to you,
for getting you in such shit.
worst of all,
i misplaced your trust.
you're right,
i don't think i'd even have the mood on wednesday to 'enjoy' the show
us knowing what it took to get those shit tickets.

i need to learn,
i need to grow up

2009-11-13T01:38:00.000-08:00

So we're all having a rough time

learning to use tumblr now. want to try something different.
the background's annoying.
i don't know what to do/how to do.
oh man!
going for dinner with mum and dad at tampines
i'm hoping SUSHI TEI PEEEZE(:
today,
i did a chapter of the TYS
i read up on Ammonia and did notes
watched 17 again, again
i started to think that Zac Efron is good looking after watching the show (GET OUT OF MY HEAD,DAMMIT)
i practiced for cg tmr, This is Our God and Sing Sing Sing
i am looking forward to watch my drama :P
i need to do followup
i did quiet time

2009-11-13T00:10:00.000-08:00

i realise that i'm impatient

yesterday was study day with isa-belle
did 2 chapters of math that got my brain fried
went down to mediacorp to get the SG idol tix( i really SHOULDN'T HAVE)
wasted like $12 bux on cab to and fro,like URGH.
and best,the taxi uncle took us for a ride(the second time).
sent us to Braddell MRT instead of Toa Payoh,making me pay more.
and waiting for collection seemed to be the longest 1hour of my life.
i will NEVER EVER queue up for such a ridiculous thing,again,ever,in my life.
well like they say, curiousity kills the cat
yea,my curiousity killed me this time.
will be standing closest to the stage.
it's printed "mosh pitt" on the tix like whatintheworld,howintheworld do you mosh to uh,that?
it's ironic cos when i watch the show with mum and dad they keep commenting that the people infront were retards.
"you always think that Singapore Idol no fans uh,got la,you see all the crazy people infront.desperate,i tell you" -famously quoted from my dad.
and i'm gonna be there.i think retard suits me,for even going down.
maybe i shall make a small poster with paige for some loser
that'd add to the fun.

2009-11-10T22:50:00.000-08:00

Gabe covering Neon by John Mayer

wicked stuff!

2009-11-10T22:20:00.001-08:00

ok so i am finally back here,blogging on this
have gotten lazy this few days la.
ANYWAY,
i finally finished cheena O's yesterday,so YAY(:
finally bought the wallet that i've been coveting from accessorize
finally got my eyebrows done(i just hate unkempt eyebrows)
finally bought more faceshop nail colors(:
finally watched so you think you can dance;its been a week since i watched!
finally downloaded 500 Days Of Summer
finally going to get SG Idol tix tmr(will elaborate later)
finally changed my skin
finally downloaded new music(whitney,michael buble,leona lewis, carrie underwood....so many i can't really remember)
finally ate my comfort food(:
finally going to study tmr,with isa-belle.

what a week it has been
had my share of ups and downs and middles
have been feeling burdened after talking to Shalynne on saturday.
i didn't know that the situation was so serious
we've got to do something, guys

on to happier things: yay we're eating at Waraku Pasta tonight(:
and i've got a new HK drama to watch ;p haha!

2009-10-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

No, no, I, I, I, I, I don't want to break when I speak
I don't want to shake while I'm standing
I don't want to crawl into another hole
I don't know what I'm hiding for
No, I, I, I, I, I don't want to fall when I stand
I don't want to have to hold your hand
I just want to be the girl I use to be
when I was me and worry free
I know these burdens are my own

But I can't keep on running
No I just can't keep on running away from here
I know that the only way to beat it is by fighting my every fear
I'm not going to make it 'til I turn
around and face it alone, I know
I can't just keep running, no I just
can't keep on running away
So it stop today

So here I am, I'm taking my first step
Thought I was losing balance but I caught myself
I kind of like the challenge, no I don't need help
I'm going to make it past the very start
it's always been my hardest part

But I, I, I, I, I'm going to stay in control
I must admit this crutch is getting old
I am going to throw it out of my hand
I'm finally here, I understand
I know I'll get there on my own

So I can't keep on running
No I just can't keep on running away from here
I know that the only way to beat it is by fighting my every fear
I'm not going to make it 'til I turn
around and face it alone, I know
That I can't keep running, no I just
can't keep on running away
So it stop today

this is one of my current faves,
love this song.
it isn't like the usual i-don't-know-what-i'm-singing-but-i'm-trying-to-act-as-if-i-know disney artiste songs. it actually feels real when i here colbie singing it.
really inspirational,breezy and fun.

me,on Singapore idol last night

2009-10-29T02:21:00.001-07:00

two words: OH MY.
you could intepret it both ways i guess,like when sylvia and tabitha sang i was like OH MY(shocked,in a good way)
and when duane started dancing like a nicole pcd wannabe(male version),i was covering my eyes and going OH MY. seriously i thought i was going to go blind.
the whole show's kinda a joke for me,
like Gurmit dresses in a suit(like ryan does,but ryan's hawwt!) and says the darnest things( yea they're too wierd, i don't want to remember)
and i feel like i'm watching a B grade chinese variety show that is dubbed in english.
oh man,
i sound like such a hater.
but to be honest,some of the contestants are really really good,
well some of them just remind us that it is a Singaporean Reality TV show we're watching.
haha,
i'm intending to get tix to watch it live,with a fellow skeptic. care to join me, anyone?

2009-10-29T02:02:00.000-07:00

Amanda's Day

dissapointment
nearly sleeping in bio
that ugly thing
nacho cheese and chicken waffles
green tea
singapore idol tix
concentrated apple juice
quickie math lessons
nick and norah's infinite playlist
contemplating
computer
facebook

yeah,so that was my day,in random,random words.

2009-10-29T01:39:00.000-07:00

it's not okay to hurt others because you can
it's not okay to be nice to people and chat them up just because you want something from them and when you don't,you just behave like their invinsible.
it's not okay to make others feel small,and laugh it off like it's a joke.
i don't blame you if you don't understand this,
'cos plastic's what you are,hun.
i saw too much already,
i had enough.of you.

HAJI and FELI.the best of both on a sunday

2009-10-25T23:39:00.000-07:00

this is pretty!!

mirror fun at PLUCK!

the fellow explorer!

PLUCK icecream's bomb!

bff of 7 years!

day at haji with felicia yesterday!

was really great to see her after so longgggg!

caught up with each other and walked around and snapped pics at haji.

bought some stuff there( i still want somemore,gulps)

i totally dig feli's photographic skills.most of these shots are done by her! :D

can't wait to see you soon Fel,after i go cut my bangs!

thanks for letting me have such a fab time,or should i say,thanks for being fab!

miss you already(:
more pics on facebook! www.facebook.com/amanda.sng

2009-10-24T18:43:00.000-07:00

i LOVE THIS COVER.

okay love story's an old cheesy(pardon me) song by taylor swift, but i really LOVE LOVE this gabe bondoc cover.

its amazing.go watch it!